Birdgirl, you are right. I am obsessing and I am seeking help for my anxiety. At this time I am on Prevacid, Prozac and Xanax and soon seeking counseling. I am a hypochondriac, not the kind who worries about germs but the kind who thinks every bodily symptom is life-threatening. It's torture.

I think a lot of what fuels my anxiety is guilt about the past. For 15 years I didn't care. I drank liquor like it was water, did all kinds of substances, smoked cigs, you name it. Now I don't, and I wonder what have I done to myself. So I bet a lot of my health anxiety is guilt fueled.

I am not going to tell myself I can NEVER have it again, but I am going to lay off until I can get things under control.

I have talked to my mom about all this and she consoled me by telling me I CAN have my favorite things including herb as long as I choose to have them in moderation rather than all the time. So maybe there will come a time when I feel comfortable with that.

Yeah, I know I have obsessive problems, in the last two years I thought I had a brain aneurysm, breast cancer, MRSA, the list goes on and on and I didn't have ANY of those things. The aneurysm thing is what started this mess, the "glitch" on my MRI was a normal variant that the doctors thought "could be" an aneurysm and that traumatized me and even after they found out it wasn't I can't shake this health anxiety.

Thanks for the responses...

As far as cooking with cannabis...I am on three different meds. I am concerned already about my liver because of the meds, could eating cannabis put more stress on my liver by chance? Just checking to be safe...

Thanks!