it's amazing how great it is to actually experience life when you're on your meds regularly and not smoking pot. you can fully feel emotions, you have more motivation to meet essential duties, and you feel like a productive member of society instead of someone with a problem who's self-medicating in order to feel nothing.

but it is extremely hard not to take just one bong hit before class or work.. especially if meds make you zombied out anyways.

it's just a lot easier for bipolar people to feel normal when we smoke.