I hope everything works out for you man
Slipknot, honey, I'm so sorry about all of this. I'm sorta late getting onto the boards tonight and reading this. I must say, your grandma is awesome. And your dad is a train wreck. Always has been. Always will be, most likely. Sounds to me like you're working through your separation and grief right now, which is never easy, but it's necessary, and you're wise to keep him at a safe distance even though I know that hurts, too. You're doing what you need to be doing to protect yourself and your own little family, and that's the right thing, no matter how bad it hurts.
I really admire and respect the fact that the lesson you take from your own upbringing is how not to be that way with your own son, which is a lot more than lots of people who grow up in addicted, dysfunctional families do. Most of them simply pass the insanity and neglect down from generation to generation. You're already 100 times more of a grownup, responsible man than your dad ever was.
I love you, Slipknot. Keep your chin up. And listen to your father Skink's wise advice up there about keeping that drinking in check. You've inherited a double dose of addiction genes from both your parents. When you feel them stirring and urging you toward whatever form of alcohol is your poison of choice, go take a look at that precious toddler in the next room and remember that he's counting on your to be more sober and steady than your parents were for you.
i don't think anyone really understands my alcohol use.... lets just say i drink a few beers (12 ozs) to kick up something else i'm doing... well mostly anyways, there are a few times when i just try to get drunk as i can.. but that's pretty rare. i guess you could sayi drink regularly, but i enjoy the taste of beer, at the same time i rarely get drunk...
oh yeah, i'm in a pretty decent mood now.. took 5 hours but i'm pretty much as normal as i usually am now..
im sorry mate ,
you knwo i geuss your the only other person i know wh must know what it feels ,.... not knowing your father at all is better then knowing who he is and that he doesnt give a shit about you.
my dads an achoholic, i know its not on the same list as crack but some people u just cant help,
help yoursef, help your family . be the man your dad never was.